So I havent wrote in a while and should probably catch up on my writing.
Hung out with Jake again…… at barley corn with tara and his friend… we hit it off right away and I almost felt like I’ve known him for years. It was nice to have this feeling. I probably should of been a lil more outgoing though… but he texted me as soon as he left and said he had a great time with me and when we were hanging out he said he wanted to hangout with me tomorrow. I thought everything went well. and i think hes the cutest. and then he texted me telling me that he thinks we would look cute together :0 :)
I really want to hangout with him again but i think that its to early to go over to his appt. because he invitied me… idk. I’d feel more comfortable if he came over to my place. but now idk about that since our ceiling is bubbling from water leakage from our shower. and it doesnt help the fact that im the only one home till sunday and now i have to deal with these maintenance guys.
I’ve also been home alone a lot lately since victoria is home for the summer, hannahs been on a trip with her bf and back in iowa for a while and saras on vaca. Idk it was nice for a lil while until i started feeling lonely. All I’ve been doing is going to work and then coming home. Can’t wait till sara and hannah are back so we can really start this summer.
I’m also trying to loose weight but i dont think its working….. meh. kinda depressing.

Havent wrote on here in a while.. kinda forgot to. Well today i worked both of my jobs…… been running around since 9am and its currently 11:30pm……..The people I work with at carmines…. well lets just say i should probably be praying for them. They are way to negative and self centered/ judgemnetal. all horrible things right? well tonight that rubbed off a lil bit on me and got so upseet i called my mom and vented and cried. ugh. i hate feeling like i need to do that. but i dont want to pretend anymore that im happy.  and I know i can only make myself happy blah blah blah…..Well I am still trying to find another job because this is not the kind of place i want to be in. Got asked on a date for friday but i doubt it will happen. not gonna get my hopes up anymore.
eh whatever happens happens.
I’m done writing this depressing post and will leave it at that.

im tired. goodnight

I havent wrote in a couple days… havent felt the need to and I was in the suburbs for a while. My friday night (tonight) consisted of 2 rented movies, a popsicle and jello. I could of gone out with friends but I just didnt feel like drinking and socializing. but I much rather have someone come over and watch movies with me. I also dont know what all of this “its the end of the world” talk is all about. well its 12:41 am on saturday and I’m still sitting here on earth. The bible says that judgement day is unknown and can never be predicted. So I’m sticking with that. 
My dating lifee still sucks. a guy that seemed so eager to hang out with my this weeknd and said he would call on friday (today) well he never did…. sigh. everything happens for a reason right? I’m trying to hard to keep my positive attitude up. I can’t get the guy that plays guitar for my church band out of my head…. and last weekend I swear I saw him working at one of my fav resturants….
Not only am I not having any luck with dating my ex bf won’t stop trying to get me to go on vacation with him and hangout with him…..I’m trying to move away from my past to something better but it seems I can never get away from it.
Also this house gets lonely after being in it by myself for a while…..
Well atleast I got my hostessing job back! This is why its helpful to know people that can help u out. this meanss some $$$$$$$ will be rolling in for once :)
I have a feeling this is gonna be a post Ill look back on and laugh…
I need my beauty sleep now. night world